♪ Adidas Sneakers by Jeremy Scott
♪ Be more Christ-like
♪ Be multi-lingual; master Chinese, Japanese, Korean, German and French
♪ Black Doc Martens' Boots
♪ Canon EOS 60D with 60mm Macro USM lens, 10-22mm USM wide-angle lens and EF-S 18-200mm lens
♪ Get married to the right man
♪ Hoodies
♪ Kittykats
♪ Louis Vuitton Damier Graphite Canvas Brazza Wallet
♪ Ombre hair
am feeling more and more mixed up as the days go by. On some days I miss you terribly, and on others I really don't care anymore. Am I moving on, or am I just numb to the pain?
I just want to be happy. I'm envious when I see happy singles, happy couples, and generally happy people. It's like, my only source of long-term happiness comes from him and I know it's not supposed to be like that, but spending time with my family and friends just gives me happiness for a while, and then I think about him and it's back to square one. Guess I have to be unhappy for another 2 more months before I finally have it all together again. What do I want right now? It's basically all about him. For him to call me endearing terms again, for him to even think about me, for him to prioritize me again, for him to hug & kiss me, for him to cuddle with me, for him to be happy with me. I know I sound a little selfish, but I always want to be the one to make him happy but for some reason it always backfires. And I'm not really looking forward to my birthday, because I know I won't be able to celebrate it with him as boyfriend/girlfriend, or with him as friends even.
Okay I sound like a fool in love, but that's what we all are... right?
.. Is there a pill to make you go to sleep for 2 months? I really need that. Or happy pills. I just need something.
Looked at your twitter and saw that the iPad 2 has arrived.. If we were all good you would have texted me straight away and I'd be the first to know, but now I'm not. It's quite sad and strange to see that I'm now no longer the first. Said this a lot, but I still wish everything was back to the way it was.
