Feeling so tired of life.
Feeling so ugly.
People don’t get why I feel ugly, always telling me how pretty I am. I was never the pretty one growing up, boys would talk to me just so they could get to know my best friend. I grew up feeling invisible. I used to stare at myself in the mirror, looking myself over and pointing out all the flaws I see. My eyes are too far apart, my nose too wide and flat, my lips too thick and shapeless, my skin isn’t perfect. I could go on and on about every single part of my body. The insecurity that I have is growing, especially with the rise of social media where girls are now free to post their pictures on the internet and people would fawn over them. I would always compare myself to them, and then feel horrible about myself. It’s not healthy but I can’t help myself.
Maybe that’s why I’m so insecure in a relationship. I always can’t believe that a guy would choose me over the girls who are so much prettier than I am, funnier than I am. I always believed a guy regretted choosing me once he found out who I truly am, how I truly look under the makeup and when I just wake up, all messy-haired and blurry-eyed.