talked to my fren today.. he just broke up wif his stead so yea. he was pretty upset. i tried to comfort him. ended telling him.. i was just like him in the past. i always wanted to be perfect in the guy i loved's eyes. orhkay. here's the story.
i really loved that guy
everytime i saw him
my heart would beat so fast
my face would be red..
somehow..
i feel that
i really loved him
more than anyone
i wanted to be perfect too
i pretended to be the person i was not in front of him
i tried to be the one for him
who knew
he only liked me for like
2 days
once he told me that he liked me
i exploded
i was sooo happy
hais
i guess
i overdone it
who he really liked
was the person i really am
and not the person i tried to be
i didnt noe that
i continued pretending
he even told me he loved me
but my fren asked him
if he really loved or liked me
and his ans was no..
when i heard
i was really upset
i cried for days
thinking
he lied to me
he cheated my feelings
but later..
when i started to really think
i realised
he was right
i was too much of a pretender
i..
was fake..
the real me inside
was somehow
pushed away
and taken over by the fake me..
the fake pushed to front
and the real me was left inside
never to be seen by anyone
lol. thats wad i said. ened up crying. sad memories huh. =)
