thE dreaMierS

2012-01-25T23:16:00.000-08:00

I stopped praying for the first time in 2 years.

I figured if it happens, it happens.

2012-01-17T10:04:00.000-08:00

I really thought I was done crying. I though I'd just miss him occasionally but or some reason I cried when I woke up today. Maybe it's because I dreamt of him. Maybe it's because I missed him so much.

Night.
Things are getting complicated, and once again I couldn't control myself and cried. I guess the only good thing that came out of it is that it made me sleepy. Who knew break-ups were so messy?

2011-11-26T00:32:00.001-08:00

Every morning I wish I didn't have to wake up so that I wouldn't feel the unhappiness..

2011-10-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

"i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
across the universe i go to other galaxies
just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
i navigate myself myself to take me where you be"

somehow

2011-09-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

am feeling more and more mixed up as the days go by. On some days I miss you terribly, and on others I really don't care anymore. Am I moving on, or am I just numb to the pain?

am all

2011-09-16T08:23:00.000-07:00

mixed up inside. I'm not happy, but I'm not unhappy enough to be unhappy. All I know is that when you're back, everything in my life will be perfect.

Just

2011-09-12T22:10:00.000-07:00

I just want to be happy. I'm envious when I see happy singles, happy couples, and generally happy people. It's like, my only source of long-term happiness comes from him and I know it's not supposed to be like that, but spending time with my family and friends just gives me happiness for a while, and then I think about him and it's back to square one. Guess I have to be unhappy for another 2 more months before I finally have it all together again.
What do I want right now? It's basically all about him. For him to call me endearing terms again, for him to even think about me, for him to prioritize me again, for him to hug & kiss me, for him to cuddle with me, for him to be happy with me.
I know I sound a little selfish, but I always want to be the one to make him happy but for some reason it always backfires.
And I'm not really looking forward to my birthday, because I know I won't be able to celebrate it with him as boyfriend/girlfriend, or with him as friends even.

Okay I sound like a fool in love, but that's what we all are... right?

..
Is there a pill to make you go to sleep for 2 months? I really need that. Or happy pills. I just need something.

2011-09-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

Looked at your twitter and saw that the iPad 2 has arrived.. If we were all good you would have texted me straight away and I'd be the first to know, but now I'm not. It's quite sad and strange to see that I'm now no longer the first. Said this a lot, but I still wish everything was back to the way it was.

2011-09-01T12:09:00.000-07:00

What did we argue about?
This is the line to corresponds to us right now, sadly.

I really

2011-08-27T01:10:00.001-07:00

Hate it when people tell me you're not the one. We've gone through too many things for you not to be the one..

and I really

2011-08-26T13:43:00.000-07:00

just wanted to say, I've been saving this so I could share it with you. I received it from my girlfriend Angelia after the break and I'm here, waiting for it to end so that I could eat it with you. Maybe I'm just a stupid girl who wants to share everything nice with the person she loves.

so

2011-08-26T11:05:00.000-07:00

I decided to deactivate my facebook account and my twitter account. I could really use a break. I'm tired. Not going to resist anything you say or do anymore.

and we

2011-08-26T10:45:00.000-07:00

met today, unexpectedly. Things were so awkward, we pretended either didn't exist. No hellos, no goodbyes. I wanted so bad for you to come and talk to me, tell me the break is over, tell me everything is okay and the distance between us will no longer be there. You didn't. I didn't expect you to, anyway. I just really hoped you would, but once again expectation led to disappointment. If I could do anything, I honestly would. But you were the one to put the distance between us. I can't do anything but wait for you to come back.

2011-08-23T23:53:00.001-07:00

Would things be different if I were prettier? I really, honestly think it would.

we are

2011-08-23T23:34:00.001-07:00

on a break. I still don't fully understand what a break in a relationship means. Does it mean you break up temporarily? Does it mean you are still together but ignoring each other? I don't know how people can get back after a break and act as if nothing has happened. Okay maybe it's just me. I feel like I've been continuously rejected, and in the end I'm just tired. Tired from trying and tired of being rejected. If we get back like normal, would it mean that I am now at your beck & call? A disposable.. item? When you're happy, you stick with me. When you're mad, you call for a time out and just ignore me. What about my feelings? Am I not allowed to voice out what I feel? And even if I do, will they be heard or will they be ignored? When you feel like you're done being mad, you just appear. I hate it when I ask you when it would end, and you give me a simple 'I don't know', then decide by yourself when you want the break to end. Do you actually expect me to be as affectionate? I think not.

right now

2011-04-09T06:49:00.001-07:00

there's so much hurt in me I don't know what to do with it..

inks

2011-02-07T21:18:00.000-08:00

I'm planning to get inked ;}

But it's something that I cannot reverse so I know I need to think it through.

so... my wrist or my finger?

2011-01-26T07:11:00.000-08:00

Today Rayen did something sweet. It's just a little thing to others, but it's a big thing to me.

We got cheese fries and he ate all the fries surrounding the cheese (those that didn't have cheese on it). When I asked him why, he said it was because he wanted to save the best for me.

... c:

You Are so beautiful to me

2011-01-26T07:10:00.000-08:00

2011-01-26T07:00:00.000-08:00

Say hi to Rilakkuma.

My boyf

2011-01-12T00:47:00.000-08:00

Okay so most of my friends know that I'm attached, but I'm just gonna blog about him here.

He's 2 years younger, but he's as mature as anyone my age when it's time to be serious.

He cares a lot about me, and always makes sure I'm happy and my stomach is filled.
He's also very caring towards his friends, and makes sure they're okay by talking and encouraging them.

He sends me home after school even though he's tired, and he waits up for me at night and makes sure I'm in bed before he sleeps although he's zombie-fied.

He always encourages me when I'm down, when I don't want to go to school, anytime when I need it.

There are a million other things that I'd say, but I just want to say I love you.

random dee dum

2011-01-10T09:07:00.001-08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Physical Touch and Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		8
Quality Time:		8
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		5
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Notice

2011-01-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

Currently going through a rough patch. I'll update when all's well.

well well well

2010-12-07T10:55:00.000-08:00

it's 2.55am right now and I can't sleep. I blame afternoon naps. Anyway, here's Korilakkuma that kuku bought for me. And I look like crap; who looks good at 2.55am?

Anyway, thought the kuku deserves his own tag now.

dee dum

2010-12-07T08:56:00.000-08:00

I'm happy.

2010-11-21T07:37:00.001-08:00

You're hot, then you're cold.

I told you how I felt, but now you're treating me like a normal friend?

You make me think if you're taking me for granted.

You wanna play this game? Sure, two can go at it.

C:

2010-11-18T07:31:00.000-08:00

R: super adorable mann, love her to the max (:
I wanted to post the entire message on twitter and on facebook and just tell everyone I have such an awesome somebody D: Should I?

---
I have a spectacular somebody C:

須藤元気「WORLD　ORDER」の"MIND SHIFT"フルver.PV

2010-10-24T02:47:00.000-07:00

I knew it

2010-10-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

... Even before it happened. Why am I so stupid?

...

2010-09-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

Told myself I'll never allow it to happen again;

so why is it happening right now?

at 2.21am

2010-09-14T11:21:00.001-07:00

When I'm alone in the wee hours, I have a chance to look into myself. What I find is not always good.

It's times like this; I feel the fragility of humans.

life sucks

2010-09-12T08:16:00.000-07:00

Who's the one who determined that all 18/21-year-olds are mature and do not need parental consent? I don't understand why I need to get parental consent when it affects ME only. Like, okay, so what if they know or not? It's not like anything will change for them.
I hate it, because my parents are like wait until you're 21/wait until you have your own house/wait until etc etc.
You know what's the reason for waiting until I'm 21? SO THEY WON'T BE RESPONSIBLE. Wtf -__- It's not like I'll blame them if anything goes wrong; I'm not unreasonable like that. It's my decision, I'll take the responsibility for it.
I hate it when my parents still treat me like a child. Just the other day, dad told me to eat and I was like, okay but I wanted to wait until I'd showered before eating but I got distracted by my phone (and also, the heater takes a while to heat up the water) and GUESS WHAT, MY DAD CAME IN THE ROOM WITH THE FOOD AND WENT 'TSK, GIRL AH, SO OLD ALREADY STILL CANNOT TAKE YOUR FOOD YOURSELF.' WHAT ON EARTH???????????????? HELLO? WHAT JUST HAPPENED? DID THE FAIRY GODMOTHER DIE AND MAKE YOU HER SUCCESSOR TO PREVENT ME FROM STARVING? LOOK DAD, I. CAN. TAKE. MY. FOOD. MYSELF.

MY. GOD. WHAT IS THIS?

Introducing

2010-08-15T05:53:00.001-07:00

my twin brother :D

써리..

2010-08-09T00:03:00.000-07:00

Here, some pictures to make up for the lack of posts.

worst fucking day ever

2010-07-20T03:19:00.000-07:00

Like really. Life sucks. Let me summarize what happened today.

Woke up early.
Missed bus.
Wasted 20 minutes waiting.
Got caught in jam.
Late for school.
Ended up waking early for nothing.
Rest of school time went fine, except firefox fucked up on me early in the morning.
Rushed to bus stop and ended up waiting for 20 minutes for 169.
Reached bus interchange and 961 came a little late.
Retarded bus driver drove so slowly that he missed every single green light.
Driver also turned into bus stop when no one wanted to alight/board.
Reached home 12 minutes late.
Watched SGB for barely 10 minutes and dad suddenly announces we are eating outside.
Fetched mum at NP, asked me where I wanted to eat and I said not at NP because I'm wearing an RP shirt.
Parents ended up saying let's eat at NP. (SO WHY ASK ME?)
Ate a few mouthfuls of chicken rice and got really full. (I wasn't hungry in the first place)
Parents thought about going to Sheng Siong.
Ended up not going, which means I missed SGB for a few mouthfuls of chicken rice.

Fucking terrible, and just the thought of Chemistry II tmr and the biased facilitator just pisses me off more.

girl, I need a girl

2010-07-15T18:53:00.001-07:00

I am...

2010-07-06T05:18:00.000-07:00

so sorry! Promised to blog like donkey years ago and I owe you guys not one but TWO posts! I'm having exams right now so I MUST blog within the next two weeks! If I don't then I'll do a forfeit alright! You can dare me ANYTHING you want!

So start thinking about the forfeits! (Sounds like I know I won't blog already!)

yeah

2010-06-15T22:30:00.001-07:00

I know I owe you guys a post, but I'm planning to write another one first! But uh, I'm in school now so you guys have to wait. It's about retarded things again, but you guys have 2 posts to look forward to! :]

an exerpt

2010-06-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

from the next post :]

...as we walked towards the MRT, the joyful clackity-clack of the red clogs from a bygone era eventually faded.

Look out for the next post!

bodies, bodies

2010-05-30T02:04:00.000-07:00

Women are genetically programmed to be attracted to broad shoulders, a ripped chest and defined back…all of which tapers down to a small and chiseled waistline.

cr. some bodybuilding website

Isn't it true?

mblaq heavy post

2010-05-20T21:01:00.000-07:00

It's MBLAQ-heavy; read it if you want.

Did anyone realise how much Mir's new hair looks like Kim So Yeon's one from Iris?

Kim So Yeon

Mir

It's exactly the same isn't it?!

Turn on CC. The lyrics are good.

just...

2010-05-16T05:12:00.000-07:00

have a little more tact, will you.

so..

2010-05-01T04:04:00.001-07:00

here am I, feeling sick while the rest of the world enjoys themselves.
/wallows in self-pity

2010-04-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

I can finally cancel off one thing on my want-to-get list. Vivienne Westwood Armour Ring in Silver is mine!

:/

2010-04-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

아아아아아 모르겠어요!!!

...써리

for how long more...

2010-04-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

can I continue to deceive others, and even myself--

Alone

2010-04-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

Maybe I'm really alone. Everyone has someone.

so...

2010-03-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

For those of you who didn't believe me when I said Asemeth's life is only 3 minutes without life support, here's the evidence.

and an image of Lee Joon from MBLAQ for good measure.

Yay, abs :Q____________

well

2010-03-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

Interesting how my want-to-get list seems to grow longer and longer and nothing cancels out. OTL

group order?

2010-02-21T04:18:00.000-08:00

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Baby baby

2010-02-19T19:56:00.001-08:00

Will You Marry Me?

2010-02-09T08:53:00.000-08:00

나랑 결혼 해 줄래?
Will you marry me?
나랑 평생을 함께 살래?
Will you live forever with me?
우리 둘이 알콩달콩 서로 사랑하며
Whilst loving each other
나 닮은 아이 하나 너 닮은 아이 하나 낳고
I want to have a child that looks like me, another one that looks like you
천년만년 아프지 말고 난 살고 싶은데
And live, unhurt, for 1000, or 10000 years
솔직히 말해서 내가 널 더 좋아해
To be honest with you, I like you more than you like me
남자와 여자사이엔 그게 좋다고 하던데
And people say thats better between a man and a woman
내가 더 사랑할게 내가 더 아껴줄게
I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you
눈물이 나고 힘이 들 때면 아플 때면 함께 아파할게
If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you
평생을 사랑할게 평생을 지켜줄게
I’ll love you forever, I’ll protect you forever
너만큼 좋은 사람 만난 걸
I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you
감사해 매일 너만 사랑하고 싶어
I want to love only you everyday
나랑 결혼해 줄래
Will you marry me

Marry me 매일이 행복에 겨워서
Marry me, there’s a feeling of happiness everyday
괜시리 내일이 기대 되는 사람
And I look forward to tomorrow with you
왜이리 왜이리 떨리는 걸까
Why am I nervous
보고 또 봐도 내겐 제일인 사랑
You are the best, no matter how much I look at you
검은머리 파뿌리 될 때 까지
Until our black hair becomes white
우리 둘의 생이 다 끝날 때 까지
Until our lives end
손에 물은 묻혀도 눈에 눈물 절대 안 묻혀
Even if I put water to your hands, I won’t put tears in your eyes
넌 나의 반쪽 가슴 난 너의 반쪽 가슴 되어
You as my half, I as your half
숨을 쉬는 그 순간순간 널 사랑해 줄께
I’ll love you as long as I breathe
시간이 지나서 주름이 늘어나도
When time goes by and we get wrinkles
꼭 지금처럼 너와나 영원히 함께 할 거야
You and I will be together like now
내가 더 사랑할게 내가 더 아껴줄게
I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you
눈물이 나고 힘이 들 때면 아플 때면 함께 아파할게
If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you
평생을 사랑할게 평생을 지켜줄게
I’ll love you forever, I’ll protect you forever
너만큼 좋은 사람 만난 걸 감사해 매일 너만 사랑하고 싶어
I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you

너는 마치 어두웠던 내 삶을 밝혀주는 빛
You’re like the light which lightened up my dark life
보글보글 찌개소리로 반겨주는 집
The sound of soup boiling greeting me
매 말랐던 내 맘에 내려주는 비
The rain that falls on my thirsty heart
사랑이란 참 의미가 담겨있는 시
The poem that contains the meaning of love
하늘이 정해 준 운명의 끈
The string of destiny that the heavens have allowed
너와 나의 만남은 천생연분
The meeting between you and I was meant to be
이 세상을 다준대도 바꿀 수 없는 내 삶엔 오직 평생 너뿐
You’ll be irreplaceable even if I was given the whole world

내가 더 사랑할게 내가 더 아껴줄게
You’ll be the only person in my life forever
눈물이 나고 힘이 들 때면 아플 때면 함께 아파할게
If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you
평생을 사랑할게 평생을 지켜줄게
I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you
너만큼 좋은 사람 만난 걸 감사해 매일 너만 사랑하고 싶어
I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you I want to love only you everyday
나랑 결혼해 줄래
Will you marry me?

2010-02-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

떠나가

Yeah finally I realize that I'm nothing without you
I was so wrong forgive me

ah ah ah ah -

파도처럼 부숴진 내 맘
바람처럼 흔들리는 내 맘
연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑
문신처럼 지워지지가 않아
한숨만 땅이 꺼지라 쉬죠
내 가슴속엔 먼지만 쌓이죠 (say good bye)

네가 없인 단 하루도 못 살것만 같았던 나
생각과는 다르게도 그럭저럭 혼자 잘 살아
보고싶다고 불러봐도 넌 아무 대답없잖아
헛된 기대 걸어봐도 이젠 소용없잖아

네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지
그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지
걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수 조차 없어 애태우고
나 홀로 긴 밤을 지새우죠 수백번 지워내죠

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

oh girl cry cry yo my all (say good bye)

길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다해도
못 본척 하고서 그대로 가던길 가줘

자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도
나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라

넌 늘 그 사람과 행복하게 넌 늘 내가 다른 맘 안 먹게
넌 늘 작은 미련도 안 남게끔 잘 지내줘 나 보란듯이

넌 늘 저 하늘같이 하얗게 뜬 구름과도 같이 새파랗게
넌 늘 그렇게 웃어줘 아무 일 없듯이

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길 (나를 잊고서 살아가줘)
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 yeah (하루하루 지나면)

차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플텐데 um
영원히 함께하자던 그 약속 이젠
추억에 묻어두길 바래 baby 널 위해 기도해

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

Oh girl I cry cry yo my all say good bye bye
Oh my love don’t lie lie you my heart (say good bye)

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

Ah ah ah ah~

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

[Chorus]
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

[Chorus]
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by

It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

[Chorus]
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye

The Quiet World

2010-01-28T23:05:00.000-08:00

In an effort to get people to look
into each other’s eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear
without saying hello. In the restaurant
I point at chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn’t respond,
I know she’s used up all her words,
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.

- The Quiet World, Jeffrey McDaniel -

Cotton Candy by Daesung

2010-01-27T02:43:00.000-08:00

oh~~~

따스한 저 햇살과 함께 그대 손을 잡고서
Holding your hand with that warm sunlight
라랄랄라 노래를 부르며 달~콤한 데이트
A sweet date while singing lalala

그대란 마음에~ 설탕 한 스푼♥
You're a sweet spoon in my heart
(슈비루빠 빠루)
어느새 구름처럼 커진 내~ 마음
Suddenly my heart grew like a cloud

그대는 솜사탕 내 마음이 녹~아요
You're cotton candy that melts my heart
몽실몽실 그대를 보~고만 있어도 녹~아요
Even though I'm only looking at the plump you, I melt

불면 날아갈까 손대~면 녹을까
If the wind blows, shall we fly? If we touch, will we melt?
(슈비루빠 빠루)
눈 깜박 사라지면 너무 아쉬워
If we disappear in the blink of an eye, it'll be too sad

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요
You're cotton candy that melts on my lips
살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까
Will I fly away suddenly kissing you?
뚜르르르~

그대는 솜사탕 내 마음이 녹아요
You're cotton candy that melts my heart
몽실몽실 그대를 보~고만 있어도 녹~아요
Even though I'm only looking at the plump you, I melt

코끝을 간질 간질 그대가 좋아서
Because I like you, tickling the tip of your nose
(그대는 솜사탕)
(You're cotton candy)

그대는 솜사탕 입술에 녹아요
You're cotton candy that melts on my lips
살짝 입맞춘 그대와 날아가볼까
Will I fly away suddenly kissing you?
뚜르르르~

그대는 솜사탕 내 마음이 녹아요
You're cotton candy that melts my heart
몽실몽실 그대를 보~고만 있어도 녹~아요
Even though I'm only looking at the plump you, I melt

녹~~~아요 녹~~아~~~~~~~요.
I melt~~~ I melt~

updates on DB pains

2010-01-13T17:28:00.000-08:00

37 hours after training; arms and shoulders still aching although not as much, thighs are aching, calves are (surprisingly) not aching, sides of chest are starting to ache, back of arms are starting to ache, biceps not as bad as 24 hours after training.

random

2010-01-10T00:07:00.000-08:00

had a lol-tastic conversation with my sister on the phone the other day. (why do I have so many lol-tastic convos?!)

Me picking up phone: Hello?
Sister: Annyeong haseyo!
Me: Ah! Annyeong hashibnika!
Sister: Omma...
Me: ??? (thinking: I'm not your omma!)
Sister: ... Omma number?
Me: ? Number? Handphone?
Sister: Nono, office.

New Year Resolutions

2010-01-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

So I've been planning some New Year Resolutions that I plan to fulfill. It's my first time making them!

1. Read the whole Bible.

2. Get a GPA of at least 3.7.

3. Not skip school just because I'm tired.

4. Have better relationships with friends/family.

5. Try and visit my grandma more often.

6. Do better in sports.

lulz,

2010-01-06T16:24:00.000-08:00

my dad is mega competitive. Like, he races EVERYONE, no matter what car they're driving. He'd driven against a Porsche, Toyota, Subaru, etc etc.

Aish I forgot what I wanted to write.

random

2010-01-01T10:08:00.000-08:00

Introduced by Charmaine haha.

ehe

2009-12-16T23:20:00.000-08:00

So, I first learned about FTI when I saw this on a Korean website.

and now he has changed to this. His most recent pictures taken less than a week ago! :D (I need to stop stalking people!)

Oh my bb has grown so much. -proud-
생일 축하합니다 이재진~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BB!

It's too different

2009-12-16T10:50:00.000-08:00

Somehow it feels pretty weird when I'm not in love anymore. After 4 years and then gradually, unconsciously, I'm all alone in my thoughts again.
I'm feeling rather lost; and I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. Perhaps I should just ignore these feelings and just get on with life, dammit.
I'm sorry, I'm writing this at 2.55am and my thoughts aren't exactly coherent. Or sound, for that matter.

nothing;

2009-12-13T06:56:00.000-08:00

just thought I'll update everyone on how I'm doing.

Life's good.
I saw the beautiful sky filled with stars the other night; I sat down on the (hard) tanning chair downstairs and listened to Butterfly. I wasn't thinking about anything at all, and just stared at the stars. It's nice to be alone then.

random

2009-12-08T21:25:00.001-08:00

n'aww, just a random post.

Laughed my head off at this for some reason.

And welcoming back all those who went for the WOW Camp. Must be fun! (:

Something about us

2009-12-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

nothing much

2009-12-06T04:53:00.000-08:00

after reading this wonderful blog , I wonder how it feels like to grow up into an adult, to fall in love with that special someone, to get married, to start a family, and so on and so forth.

2009-12-06T04:35:00.000-08:00

lol, stuff like these are way awesome. (:

just wondering

2009-12-06T03:30:00.000-08:00

Am I too obvious?
I'm not expecting this to go anywhere. Heck, I don't even know if I..

Just letting nature run its course;
letting it flow where it's destined to;
which eventually comes to nothing.

so..

2009-12-06T03:22:00.000-08:00

I love your tall height;
I love your crooked teeth;
I love your high nose;
I love your curly hair.

well,

2009-12-01T19:22:00.000-08:00

wrote a random drabble last night after admiring the moon. Did you guys see it? It was beautiful. Just like me. HAHAHA.
Anyhoo, here it is.

She sighed. It wasn't like he belonged to her alone; he was the type whom everyone wanted to be friends with -- he belonged to everyone.
She stared at the moon while walking, completely entranced by its beauty. It was as if the moon had a life of its own that night; it shone so glaringly bright it illuminated the dark sky surrounding it.
It was like him. How he shone brightly even in the middle of the crowd. How he was like the moon that was so beautiful. How she could only stare at him from afar.

It may or may not be about me. I'll leave it to your imagination.

oh

2009-11-30T06:59:00.000-08:00

changed my blogskin slightly too. decided not to be so vulgar anymore!!!

(:

2009-11-30T06:55:00.000-08:00

dying of laughter. First was because Jason lives under a rock because he doesn't know what 'tweet' is. And then Fan Chong told me he knocked his head at the SIDE of the pool (how did he do it?!) many times and nearly drowned EVERYDAY. And some China kid punished him for showing off his wrestling moves by choke slamming him and head-locking him under the water. HAHHAHAHAH

I hope they don't see this!

so,

2009-11-22T02:49:00.000-08:00

I don't know how to say, or even what I want to say...
It's been a hard time; I can't deceive anyone any longer.
I don't know how my life will be after this year;
so I'm just living one day at a time.

Would it have been better if I was the one who was gone?

I'm glad I have some awesome friends, but sometimes it's just hard to even say anything.

... Switched off my phone for the first time in weeks. I want someone to be there for me when I'm down, but I don't want anyone to ask me why I am...
Because I don't know why.

randomly

2009-11-15T08:30:00.000-08:00

saw this on Bryan's blog. LOL it's a little WTF HAHAHA

Had a very random conversation with Shaun as well.

-S H A U N- We call it JH13PRO. You call it @ural sex. says (오전 12:22):
omg is that u?!!!!
lolx!
fail fail fail fail fail
Helena // I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말　*Д* b says (오전 12:24):
LOL WHAT
-S H A U N- We call it JH13PRO. You call it @ural sex. says (오전 12:24):
thats u!!!!
omgz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lolx lolx lolx
Helena // I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말　*Д* b says (오전 12:24):
WHAT
WHERE
-S H A U N- We call it JH13PRO. You call it @ural sex. says (오전 12:24):
ur dp
thats u right
lolx!!!!!!!!!!
laughing really hard now
Helena // I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말　*Д* b says (오전 12:28):
WHAAAAAAT
NOT MEEEEEEEE
LOL

For those who are curious, this is my DP at the moment.

I had some people who insists this is me. -_____- I DON'T HAVE BLONDE HAIR.

Oh, and on another random note, girlfs, CHEER UP!

hello

2009-11-11T04:29:00.000-08:00

just back from the dead to update.

Tests are so not fun.

Goodbye, going back to my grave.

well;

2009-11-01T23:37:00.000-08:00

you think;you thought

dyed my hair and...

2009-11-01T06:01:00.000-08:00

by a sudden twist of fate, my hair is now black and orange/brown. Like, one side black and one side orange/brown.

Sister, Ben and me. Photo by Peter!

untitled

2009-11-01T00:29:00.000-07:00

it's nice to be alone sometimes. but it gets me thinking.

... Is it really that nice to be alone?

I'm not lonely. Nope, I'm not.

.. Who am I kidding?

Just wanted to tell you that you were the only one who talked to me on MSN throughout secondary school. I'm not as popular as you think; not as strong as you think; and not as happy as you think. I thought you'd know it after so many years, but I was wrong.

just

2009-10-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

get over it. I give up.

... You're too selfish.

because

2009-10-28T23:24:00.001-07:00

I was asked to update;

I'm going to dye my hair black and blue. Yay.

randomly;

2009-10-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

tell me it isn't so.

2009-10-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

It's all about you, my Butterfly
Every time I come close to you
(every time I'm kissing you)
Feel like I'm gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

Unintentionally, I look the sky like
It looks similar to when you smile
Specifically your dazzling [smile] baby
My day consists of our romantic drama
Make me cry and smile no no no

I can't sleep, I call your name
I turn my head shyly (no matter what)
I like it this much
I rarely stop walking

Every time I come close to you
(every time I'm kissing you)
Feel like I'm gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

Beautiful girl

Unintentionally, I look at the ground like
I flutter so much at your 3 lettered name baby
I'll heal your one small wounds
My love is you

Like a butterfly
You look for a flower, flutter around like a child
Your innocent eyes have a smile
Your body moves like the sky, the sky
Your eyes glimmer, glimmer
I've become like this
(You're the only one girl)

Every time I come close to you
(every time I'm kissing you)
Feel like I'm gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

I'll promise the things I promise
We missed each other, and it makes me worry
Just to know the game it's all the same
What, it's this confusing
Though you can't trust guys
Love can be forever
Why do you push and pull
Can't act any more honest

Look at my eyes
You see my eyes
You see my lips
Listen to my heart
If you're listening answer me
Kiss me on the cheek
My memories
Yes my heart
Yes that be all I say
If our lovingness continues a lot
Then we'll never break up, trust me
I'll make love to you

Every time I come close to you
(every time I'm kissing you)
Feel like I'm gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

Ye you're special to me
Your turn
La la la la la la la
Yeah my butterfly

credits: lovenostalgiaa @ youtube

Birthday

2009-10-23T01:23:00.000-07:00

I had a total of 4 celebrations for my birthday, and another upcoming one on Sunday with Charmaine.

I was surprised that my new class remembered the October birthdays, and we had an awesomesauce celebration. The second celebration was with my cell group, and thanks to my sister's suggestion, they actually got me a lomo cam! -happyhappy- It was really unexpected! I love all you good people of God! -tears of happiness- Celebrated at Fish and Co., and the staff celebrated for me well. They made me stand up on a chair (which I protested against but sadly was not heard) and made me blow the candles a metre away. Couldn't blow it out because I kept laughing and ended up having Xinyi to blow it for me.

Random picture.

Lomo cam and a camera necklace my sister got for me. :]

Third celebration was with my family. Although it wasn't anything much, it was still nice that we had some family time together. Watching my mum and sister play Tap Tap was priceless.

Some tea.

Oh yummy duck!

The fourth one was on my birthday itself, and with Angelia, Shaun, Elvyn, Samuel, Manny, Jason, Nigel, Shaun's friend (omgee I can't remember your name sorry!). Went to the Singapore Flyer because of Haiping's suggestion and had a 2 hour bus ride there (my suggestion) and got blamed. HAHA. Spent the time watching videos on Siwon, talking and sleeping. Got slightly lost at Pan Pacific Hotel to the Flyer but thank goodness for Manny. Met up with the rest and went to Popeyes for dinner and cake. Thanks Samuel for buying the cake! <3 Had an awesomesauce dinner and the cake cutting was... -______- Will upload some pictures!

Oh I love these B&W pictures.

Complimentary picture of Manny.

Cutting the cakeee!

Shaun likes lomo cam-chan!

All pictures and video were taken by Siwon!

i want to

2009-10-13T22:29:00.000-07:00

tell you that it's not the first time it has happened. I've always knew you were the kind that will not wait for others if time is running out, but I never knew it was to this extent. And it's not trival; unless you tell me your attitude is.

The fucken queue wasn't even that long.

nothing

2009-10-12T21:32:00.001-07:00

just thinking if I should even continue blogging since no one seems to come back and read anymore. Yeah, I know like how I shouldn't bother about the readership but you know, sometimes blogging means that you'll want someone to read what you write and comment on it. If I didn't bother about it I would have gone back to writing a diary.

iPhone

2009-10-07T22:33:00.000-07:00

I'M GLAD TO SAY THAT I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY ORDER AN IPHONE WHILE THE REST OF THE WORLD IS CRYING BECAUSE IT'S OUT OF STOCK. (16GB WHITE 3GS)
It'll come on Saturday!

-__-

2009-10-05T23:33:00.000-07:00

WTF, man, Facebook. -_-

meh

2009-10-04T08:38:00.000-07:00

we were all supposed to go down to West Coast CC o help out with their Lion Dance troupe but Angelia and I got abandoned there. Kai Wen, Ronald and Wen Rong didn't pick up their phones, Shifu and Alvin went to Malaysia, Joe was at some event and Ganesh was still at home. -_-

then Angelia and I went off to Plaza Singapura to find Elvyn and arcade-ed there. Mad awesome fun. :D

Ending off on an abrupt note because I still have things to do and I'm supposed to be asleep now. Sucks that school starts tomorrow.

I like to act stupid with my friends.
I dislike when my friends think I'm really stupid.

Just thinking

2009-09-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

how people always say they can do something/their principle is this, etc etc but they can/will never honour what they said. Someone said that she'll always put her friends before her boyfriend (actually that's what everyone says) but seems like she'd much rather be with her boyfriend than with her friends now. I'm not dissing you or anything, I'm just saying that you shouldn't promise to do something what you are unable to do. It's not like I can't understand.

EDIT: (thought I'll just say other things as well)

Also, I don't understand why people can always say they can't survive without their boyfriend/girlfriend. Let me ask you then. HOW DID YOU SURVIVE BEFORE YOU MET HIM/HER? Did you eat the hearts of young men/women?

And something else completely unrelated to this;
I dislike people telling me that they're bored. I mean like hello, what do you want me to do/say? Go over and dance for you? The worst case of this happened the other day.
Person: sian...
Me: Er. Go watch tv?
Person: watching already haha
Me: Uh, go use your comp?
Person: Also using now
Me: Lulz. (thinking: wtf. >_>)

okay,

2009-09-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling really cheered up now. Thanks to this.

it's been such a

2009-09-27T10:19:00.000-07:00

bad day. Seems like the 27th just isn't my day. Got really disappointed when my mum insisted on not getting a SLR for me, not even the body alone. Woke up in a horrible mood after 13 hours of sleep, and lost a little of my temper. Looked at my phone and saw 3 messages. One telling me that my friend wrote my address on the envelop wrongly, one telling me that my sister will only come home on Monday, and one other one. Then went online only to have Samuel tell me that he can't make it to Sentosa tomorrow (I was so looking forward to going). I couldn't even bathe in peace because the stupid showerhead kept falling off its thinger. Had a okay dinner with parents, then went back home to watch the GP. Things picked up after that and watched a drama with my mum. Oh well. Oh yeah, my mum told my dad that I drove his car after my sister told me not to tell my dad. Oh maaaan.

Oh yeah, I randomly dreamed of a pair of pretty handsome twins. XD and I remember seeing an LV backpack and a Mac.

Anyhoo, Likes&Dislikes for this week.
I like to be with my friends.
I dislike when my friends are all asswipey. >:

Here's a fabbity fab MV for you gaiz because it's really awesome and has a good story.

Big Bang - Lies

hehe

2009-09-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

I had my first driving experience this afternoon. :D It was just for a while though, and on a straight road. Thanks to my sister, who let me drive even though we were late for meeting some of our friends. I must say, I think I'm a pretty good driver. 8D
My sister was a little reluctant to let me drive past those parked cars on the road because it's a 2 lane road, but I drove past without any accidents. XD She switched on the hazard lights because she thinks that I'm a hazard on the road! >: HOW MANY 16 YEAR OLDS GET TO DRIVE HUH. 8DDD (granted, I'm turning 17 next month)

Also, more and more of my friends are getting SLRS, and I'm really jealous because their parents are the ones who bought for them. I'm actually really disappointed that my parents refused to get one for me, but I'm really really really hoping to get one this birthday. I'm praying for it to happen. C: I'm really interested in all kinds of photography, even film and lomography, and especially B&W. I don't mind having a lomography camera, but of course my first choice would be the Canon EOS 450D because of the features and the fact that I'm free to change the settings and lens at will. Pray for me too okay! XD

wao.

2009-09-25T11:03:00.001-07:00

Just thinking how a haircut can change a person so much.

From this

to this.

BUT, he's still adorable. Just in a different way.

because I had a

2009-09-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

loltastic conversation with Jun Ming.

Helena // 너라고　*Д* b says (12:37 AM):
HAHHAA
TURN GAY, BABY
*bish*X*bash*...Dying will feel so much better... says (12:37 AM):
TURN GAY THEN I WILL BE WITH U LE
Helena // 너라고　*Д* b says (12:37 AM):
HAHA FUCK
YOU SAYING I'M A GUY IS IT?

nothing much

2009-09-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say Leeteuk and Eunhyuk are really funny. |D /dork

Leeteuk: Ah, I just though of it. When I'm old, I'll be strolling with my partner, hands held together.
Eunhyuk: Yea, it's quite blissful.
Leeteuk: And we're able to close our eyes, pass away, on the same day...... No, it can't be like this. She has to die earlier than me, and when she's dead, I'll go decorate her grave, Ahahaha.

Eunhyuk is going to France.
Eunhyuk: In any case that I have some problems, you have to stay at the embassy everyday, and call some place like the International Child Lost Centre, and ask whether I'm inside.

nothing much;

2009-09-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to show you gaiz this guy. Who was 20 when he acted in this film. And looks so adorable.

Oh man, he's pouting! ♥3♥

Okay I should stop.
I would like to think he puts most girls to shame.

hmm

2009-09-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

cut on my hair on Wednesday and now I have me some bangs. 8D

Randomly, I can't even start to say how many people thought the person on my MSN display picture is me. OTL

DO WE LOOK ALIKE? DO WE?????

Also, Likes&Dislikes.

I like to be mistaken for someone good-looking.
I dislike to be mistaken for a guy more than 5 times.

just

2009-09-18T11:37:00.001-07:00

changed some sidebar information. Noticed?

Sorry but...

2009-09-17T08:37:00.001-07:00

I happen to think that going to church doesn't change a person immediately. It's not like YOU changed, really.

watching

2009-09-15T00:35:00.000-07:00

Full house! Oh man, their English is really funny! Eunhyuk can't stop saying 'Nice weather~'!

Acting out a scene whereby Heechul goes to a police station (Julian as police) to report a missing friend (Eunhyuk). Eunhyuk hides in a room behind Julian.

Julian: Is your friend tall or short?
Heechul: Short!
Eunhyuk (from back): I'm long!
Julian: What does his hair look like?
Heechul: Monkey!
Julian: -opens door-
Eunhyuk: -comes out of room holding an umbrella- NICE WEATHER~

thE dreaMierS

somehow

am all

Just

I really

and I really

so

and we

we are

right now

inks

You Are so beautiful to me

My boyf

random dee dum

The Five Love Languages

Complete set of results

Information

Notice

well well well

dee dum

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I knew it

...

at 2.21am

life sucks

Introducing

써리..

worst fucking day ever

girl, I need a girl

I am...

yeah

an exerpt

bodies, bodies

mblaq heavy post

just...

so..

:/

for how long more...

Alone

so...

well

group order?

Baby baby

Will You Marry Me?

The Quiet World

Cotton Candy by Daesung

updates on DB pains

random

New Year Resolutions

lulz,

random

ehe

It's too different

nothing;

random

Something about us

nothing much

just wondering

so..

well,

oh

(:

so,

randomly

hello

well;

dyed my hair and...

untitled

just

because

randomly;

Birthday

i want to

nothing

iPhone

-__-

meh

Just thinking

okay,

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